Spots.

He gave them what they needed. He made His glory known through their pain. And ultimately He delivered them in the way and timing He knew was best.

But never once did He miss a thing. 

 

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They found a spot on my dad’s lung a couple of weeks ago.

It was just a tiny spot, about the size of the piece of grit that fell out of my shoe Tuesday when Heather and I went for a walk. When I finally stopped and shook it out, it hit the pavement like lint, soundless and light. In the moments before it fell out into the sunshine, it had ground into my heel like an ice pick.

Heather laughed. I did, too.

Things like that can feel so big sometimes.

Dad’s spot had popped up on a routine scan, a little piece of grit, unknown and dark. We didn’t know how long it had been there. We didn’t know what it was.

And that was scary.

As I lay in bed one night, things rolling around in my mind, I rolled over on my side, pulled the covers over my head and curled my knees up to my chest.

And from my tiny dark spot, I whispered.

God, you see it, right?

That spot … you see it?

And you see me too?

Lately I feel like there have been a few things that have popped up, little dark spots that I don’t quite know how to handle. Things that make me uncomfortable. Things that I feel unequipped to deal with. Things I don’t love.

And I’ve curled up under the covers more than a few times, right into those spots, and whether I realized it or not, I thought it.

This spot’s outside God’s line of sight. It’s gotta be.

I know that’s not true. But subconsciously I’ve been treating some of them like that, and because of that they’ve been rubbing me raw, boring into my soul like ice picks in my running shoes.

It’s as if I think that spot is the one place where maybe He isn’t going to be who He says He is.

Or that maybe it’s the one place in my life where maybe He just won’t come through, that He just won’t be enough.

Or that maybe the spot where God brought me to save me is now the spot where He’s going to leave me to figure it out on my own.

Or that maybe I’m the only person to ever find myself here.

But it’s not a new problem.

When God’s people found themselves in Egypt, the place where God brought them by design to save them from dying in a famine, they trusted Him at first. But then later, they found themselves stuck, uncomfortable, hurt.

And they thought that spot where the salvation had been, the spot that now wasn’t super comfortable, might just be out of God’s sight.

But God heard their groaning, and God remembered His covenant … and God saw the people. And God knew.

He heard.

He remembered.

He saw.

He knew.

And He gave them what they needed. He made His glory known through their pain. And ultimately He delivered them in the way and timing He knew was best.

But never once did He miss a thing.

There’s no spot that escapes His reach, no zip code in which He’s not who He is. That goes for Dad’s spot, for my spot under the covers, for the places I feel like maybe my own inadequacies prevent God from being able to do what He intends to do.

He sees.

He knows.

He loves.

And He meets us even – especially – in those spots.

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*****

i dont wait anymore

 

It’s almost here, guys. What in the world. 

“Have you been waiting for life to turn out the way you expected?

… You’re not alone.”

“I Don’t Wait Anymore” the book, available here.

14 Comments on “Spots.

  1. A couple weeks ago I was reading through the exodus through Egypt and wrote those words out– God heard, God remembered, God saw, God knew. And God took care of them. Even when I think I’m too far away or too whatever, God sees. And He knows me. There’s nowhere we can escape his presence– even in the thin spots we hide in.
    Love you, friend. Can’t wait for the book! Already preordered.

  2. Thank you for this. I pray that even as God uses you to encourage many (like me) that He will also send others to minister to you and may He fill your heart in a special way.

  3. May this be shared. Normally I would just send it on it’s way. But, being that you are now a newly published author, I thought it a good idea to ask first.

    Sandy Stillions

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  4. Great Blog today. Yes I think we have all been there. Hope your dad is ok. Can’t wait to read your book.

    Hugs, Wanda Bergeron

    Sent from my iPhone

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  5. Exactly what God has been ministering to me this week. “I see your situation, and I know exactly what I’m going to do.” I pray for His strength in you.

  6. I love that God intersected our lives way back when, Grace. I know He had a grand purpose for that brief moment. Praying He continues to meet you in very real ways. He is always good to us.
    Love,
    jennifer

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